Mad Hatter

The title of this entry has less to do with my childhood favorite, "Alice In Wonderland", than it does with the many roles I find myself playing out these days. My life is a lovely hodge podge of of interests, ideas and simple obligations that I often feel as though I am continually switching hats.

Before discussing the madness underlying all this, let me first reference a great newsletter I receive from Denise Linn. In the latest issue she wrote about the stuff of life, the basic obligations we each have in our day to day living, whether it be caring for the creatures on her farm, or caring for children or other basic stuff that keeps our daily lives running.

I have to agree with Denise Linn, in that its our attitude about how we approach the stuff in our lives that makes it a blessing or a burden. I'd even take it one step further, and point out that its our choice to continue living the way we do. If we can't find joy or satisfaction in it, then we need to ask ourselves if its really necessary and why we continue to have it in our lives.

Having said that, I suppose one form of madness is to continue doing and being in ways that are soul sucking while doing nothing to free ourselves from the cycle. There certainly are no fairy god-mothers or white knights with the capacity to free us from ourselves! Once again, its an inside job!!

My own particular madness has been to hold these hats that I wear as somehow separate and distinct. In trying to draw boundaries around them, I am stifling the flow in my life. I currently wear the "Mommy" hat most of the time (which comes with a lovely matching super hero cape). In addition to that I have a physiotherapist hat, a business partner hat, a life partner hat, a writer's hat (quite dusty these days!) and so on. What is crazy making for me, is attempting to schedule all these wardrobe changes in any given day. Its an impossible feat that inevitably finds me mismatched, confused and breathless.

No more! After having seeing the bizarre millinery confection that Sarah Jessica Parker wore on the Paris red carpet premiere of Sex In The City, I have decided to follow suit!! I'm going to pool all my hats into one and let it make its own unique statement. And just like SJP, I'm sure it will make tongues wag while I strut my stuff, feeling just fine in my own skin.